remembering kenny

i have been upset all week.
i cry so easily.
a childhood friend passed away last weekend in a car accident.
his funeral was on monday and it was the hardest thing ive had to do.
im only 27 and the only other person that has passed away was my beloved grandma matia.
but you always know that your grandparents will go just dont know when.
it still hurts but i didnt go to her funeral it was in el salvador.
i do remember going to the airport to see my dad leaving to the funeral and that has been the only time ive seen my dad cry.
that has been as close to a funeral that ive gotten until monday.
kenny was only a few years younger than me and now he is gone.
i remember when he used to come over to play with my brother or to do school work
so he was like a little brother.
you know how it is when you grow up you move on and lose touch.
so was the case with kenny and few other school friends.
so about a year ago we went to holy ghost school bazaar to see if i would find any of the old crew.
when i spotted this man who looked a lot like kenny.
as soon as he spotted me he came and gave me a big hug.
it was such a nice surprise.
i couldnt believe the little boy that had tried to kiss me had grown to be a man.
it seemed like in a blink of an eye he had grown up.
but his endless smile was still there.
i cant remember him not smiling.
he was always smiling from ear to ear.
but back to his funeral.
it was the hardest thing to hear his mom screaming "why him god you were supposed to take me first" "we were so happy" "we had a plan"
seeing the casket and knowing he was in there it was so unreal i couldnt get up from my chair to say good bye.
looking around the funeral home you knew kenny touch alot of lives and that he was well loved.
he will be missed by all that had come in contact with him.
he was one of those people that you instantly felt comfortable with and made you smile and laugh.
then seeing them pour dirt over the casket was hard too.
it felt so weird knowing i wasnt going to see him again.
he was just so lovable.
and now he is gone and its such a waste.
its so unfair he was so young and had the rest of his life ahead of him.
he will missed. now he is an angel but he always was.
i will always remember kenny with his pretty eyes and smiling.
always smiling.